sleep is haunting me

I cannot sleep anymore unless I take some sort of medicine...
I took some almost two hours ago and I feel so sedated it's ridiculous. I'm not 100% sure this post will make sense.

I don't even have a reason for posting..


Tonight a party of Hooter's girls came in and I got stuck waiting on them. I wore owl earrings. When one of them noticed, she screamed, "OMG OWL EARRINGS!! We gottaaaaa get some guys! Oh, (looks at me), we work at HOOTERS!"
I laughed awkwardly because it was too perfect?
They tipped well, though.
My boss told me to go wipe the seats in the bar that they sat on so no one would catch anything
(they all wore really tiny dresses and probably no panties!)
my boss is amazing.


I want to raise a baby tiger. I think they're such fascinating animals. That or a gorilla. I might change my name to Jane Goodall. That was her, right?!


Oh, school...

So excited for it to start Monday!

A purpose. I need one. School will give it to me.
I feel so much more intelligent while in school...
why?


I don't know. Maybe because I'm awkward with people sometimes and when I'm in school it gives me free conversation starters.

Like..
"Hey, I just learned about communism in the early 1900's in China?!"

no.

ok but I'm excited for school anyway.

maybe because it gives me stuff to do during the day?

no.

I hate schedules. I love being busy, but spontaneously busy!
if theres one thing I hate, its being certain places by certain times.


my dad called me yesterday because my mom freaked out and emailed him and made him. i told her part of my stress was not having him in my life.
it didn't really help because he was forced to..


I'm no longer capitalizing which means I'm too sleepy!


I still have nightmares about my old dog. Is this silly?
I begged my parents for years and years to buy me a dog and they finally did when I was almost finished with high school. He became my best friend.
I would take trips home from college just to see him. He would get so excited! Jump up and down for FOREVER and follow me around everywhere!
The day my mom made me give him away I held him in my room for a long time and cried. He knew I was crying and kept nudging my hands and licking my face every once in a while.


I would give anything to get Tony back. like my priorities? I do.

palpitations. just now.