hello cramps. good to see you again.

I'm such an apathetic sonofabitch.
I need to get my priorities straight.


I need to stop DRINKING so much. This is so unlike me. I never drank up until last year... and I go through these phases. I'll party nonstop for a few weeks, then not drink at all for a few months. I'm in a crazy party stage, though.
My sleeping schedule is awful. I stay up until 4 a.m. or later every single night and sleep the day away.
Often wanting to skip class.


I'm so not made for school. I hate it. I'd rather learn on my own.


Systems. I hate them.
Education.
Religion.
Politics.



anarchist? slightly.


I desperately want to learn the guitar! Maybe I'll get the motivation to do so. But this darn apathy. Eating away at me like a disease.

I also would like to start a book club with a few friends. Sounds dorky.
But I think it'd be fun to get a bunch of people together, read the same book, and discuss it once a week together.
It'd be a positive thing to do with our time... but we'd also be socializing.


I like Brian. A lot. But I swore off boys for a while. I'm scared to like him too much.
But I think I trust him?
But I trusted all the other ones too.
so I don't know.
but I think he really does like me?


but so did all the others.
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I swear I'll get my life together
I'm better than this.