Hands down I'm too proud for love

I just got a new National Geographic sent to me about Neanderthals and it is by far my favorite issue yet..

I cannot sleep at the moment

Trying my hardest not to become dependent on my boyfriend for happiness/entertainment.

Doing miserably at school... apathy...


Can't eat without a stomach ache. Gaining too much weight. Caring too much about gaining too much weight.

Purpose. Where are you?




I yearn to travel. Probably longest I've gone without leaving the state in a couple of years.


Ever want to start over? I do sometimes.
No regrets for the most part, though.

Hmmph

Take me back to Montmartre, pleasssseee!

Montmartre, easily the most charming part of Paris. I yearn to go back! I didn't spend enough time there. I'm going to cut my hair and change my name to Audrey Tautou and say weird little quirky things.

In other news, I miss Brian.

roped and tied

Next semester I'm taking a break from school. This either means the entire semester off or only taking a couple of courses to keep me still officially enrolled in school. I'm not motivated at all. Not for school, anyway.


I want to open up a venue/club/bar/coffee shop. Yes. All in one.
I will. I need some time to save up money. I'm slowly gaining the business skills and I have some knowledgeable people on my team. Won't begin til summer, though.

I'm going sky diving. With Ashley. And anyone else with the guts to come.

I need to start taking my lexapro consistently. I go days without it then realize how much I need it.



I need a bangin job! I'm gonna be a hooker. Or drug dealer. Probably both. That sounds rather legit



I don't feel like I mean anything to anyone
I think I have friends..
but I don't feel like there is anyone who wouldn't be able to 'live without me'.
.... I kind of want that? Is that conceited or selfish? to feel needed/wanted?
I don't know.


giving up that kitten was one of the hardest things I've had to do in a while.
it seemed to be the only thing that loved me no matter what I did. Even after I gave her a bath.


I miss Tony.